March just march on...

Sometimes do you feel like punching a wall, screaming out loud in the open in the hope of trying to release that upsurge of emotions? But then you stop because a) more than the wall, it'll be you who will get hurt more. b) if you start shouting, people around will judge you, question you or look at you like trying to explain your unacceptable behaviour c) Release may lead to regret. Sounding like the classic behaviorist meets existential world lines right? Reading some of my old posts made me realise that I mostly write in a happy and chirpy way probably because I think it would read better and that writing it itself will put me in a good mood. But what about the feeling when realise that the world is not the place you imagined it to be? The people are not like what you probably imagined. That its all a facade. At times I actually believe in the concept of Hunger Games. Don't you think it actually exists? Maybe not the killing. Maybe not the volunteering. Maybe not eating animals - because the world is slowly bending towards vegetarianism. But the competition, true. The temporary ally thing, true. The capitol - the society- the people judging you based on your 'social personality', true. The sponsorship gifts, maybe true. I think while writing Katniss's character, Collins embodied the characteristics of the neurotypicals who exist. Family comes first, but that even within the family you do experience turmoil, resentment, ups and downs as compared to the rosy picture everyone wants to paint. Taking things and people for granted is actually becoming a thing in this millennial generation don't you think? Of course, in our case, there may be no  permanent dandelions which give us hope and remain there. Rather pessimistic? Well research shows that even though optimism and pessimism are personal orientations and no, one if not scientifically better than the other, on some days you do require both. To accept reality, one needs to have a neutral stand. But is it that easy? Can't say because the one writing this is currently weighed down by a huge list of assignments/submissions pending and of course guilt closely associated with the binge watching streak and thus not in the position to write a decent post. So my apologies for writing such a crappy one and guys HOW'S THE JOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Watched URI last night and my respect for the army and more so for their families escalated to another level! Will write more about the movie and the several others on my Movie list next but abhi ke liye itna hi...